Today .... There was a plan. Work, for lack of anything better; besides I have been I a funky headspace, so better that I keep my mind occupied. Lunch with a friend, because time spent with people that you love is precious. Maybe a treat .... After all it is the Magician's Birthday - and cake is good.
So I wake up early. Shit shower shave and shovel the driveway because it is a storm. I walk the 2km towards work and stop at the local Best Western for breakfast. A treat and it was good. I walk across to my local coffee shop and watch the people coming and going. I have time. My boss is running a bit late and I am way early. I make it into the office and begin clearing my inbox ..... The phone rings; it is just after 08:10h.
I've lost a friend last night. The last I had heard she was recovering from surgery to remove a growth from her occipital lobe - it had gone well. Four days later we are heartbroken ..... She has left behind a husband, 2 children and many many friends. And so much more; we had all signed up to run multiple races. There is an 11 year old son who has a birthday tomorrow! The dog needs walking .... The 20-something daughter needs her friend and confidante. And her husband ..... So much left undone and so many left to carry on without her.
I Cried! I got angry with God! I left work and went to spend time with my girlfriend ... and we cried. So much grief. Sad ..... I Had A Plan, but then it changed. Such is life.
When you talk to the people who matter in your world, make certain to remind them of your love. Every time - know this .... If you do you will always have the comfort of knowing that the last time you spoke to someone that you have lost you will have said "I Love You"
Today I am sad. Today cake was swapped out for Apple Crumble as dessert during lunch with a friend. Today I grieve for a little boy who will wake up tomorrow, and for years to come, on his birthday knowing that his mom died the day before he turned twelve. Today I am reminded that while I find it challenging to remember to be grateful..... that I live by the Grace of my Higher Power. Today ... The Magician's Birthday.